In my family, the holidays have always been inextricably connected to sadness... and thus we begin the season rather tentatively... quietly willing January to arrive. As I sit alone in the stillest part of the night listening to my son's slow, peaceful breathing-- it occurs to me that the last thing I want to do is pass on a family legacy of grief, fear and foreboding... And so this year I am making a vow to experience the Christmas season through the naive, eager eyes of my new son.
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i know what u mean in a way... when we were little, it was twinkling lights, red & gold wrapping paper, waking up with wonder on Christmas day. as i got older, it was worries of money that seemed 2 cloud the whole season. blessings 2 u 4 making it happen, no matter what the circumstance. u are my example.
Amen to that. Kids are really what the holidays are all about. We all learn from them that worries are what take the "wonder" of of the holidays for us. I hope your Christmas was really beautiful!
Tabula Rosa can be a wondrous thing. It enables you to create yourself because you simply willed it into existence. I see through my children's eyes and I want to be their hero, their protector, their haven--a bringer of light and love and acceptance. They don't see and they don't care about my "baggage" and so I get to dump that sadness and put it away. The joy & innocence of children bring out the best in most of us. Congrats to you.
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